You Know Me as Friday

What a great day! After work, I drove to canby, not as hard to find as I thought. I finally met...

Sun, 26 Feb 2012 03:26:54 -0500

What a great day! After work, I drove to canby, not as hard to find as I thought. I finally met Trevor, it felt like we had met before. We walked around a lil bit, then drove to the river and chatted as the sun set. Drove back to where we met, grabbed a pizza & took it back to his place. I met his roommate & roommates friend, nice ppl, hope they liked me, I know the dog did lol. We had some alone time, checked out pictures of his kids, saw pics of him with longer hair than mine, had a great laugh. Talked about seeing Bob Saget next weekend if we can swing the time off together. It was so awesome getting to know him & find out that we have a lot more in common about a lot of beliefs, work ethic, relationships. He even said, a couple different times, that he wants to see me again. I can’t wait to see him again. Oh, he even walked me to my car & kissed me good night. Told ya, great day!

Got b’s grades this week. He improved every grade except 1 by 1 level. Even his gpa went up by...

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 02:54:38 -0500

Got b’s grades this week. He improved every grade except 1 by 1 level. Even his gpa went up by 1 point. I’m so proud of him!

I also got my results from my last Dr visit. Sadly I gained 5 pounds. My good cholesterol is just shy of good status, bad cholesterol is well under the good bar. My cmp is normal. Vitamin d… Yeah, still low. No surprise there, I mean it is Oregon that I live in. Not too many ppl here aren’t vitamin d deficient.

Overall, not too bad on either fronts, both of us could use more work. Now… My bed is calling me. I have work in the morning.

Oh February, how I love you and hate you at the same time. I love you because my dad & my nephew...

Wed, 08 Feb 2012 23:23:45 -0500

Oh February, how I love you and hate you at the same time. I love you because my dad & my nephew were both born this month - yay!

However, I dislike you. You spend half a month making men/women feel horrible if they don’t give their lady/guy the perfect gift. You also make single ppl feel awful cuz they don’t have anyone to love.

Now before anyone tries to say anything cheerful or whatever, let me just say yes I am slightly bitter. I am grateful for my son who deep down loves me. I just miss the love and affection a grown man can bring. Neither of my boyfriends ever did anything special, at least not without me asking them to. Kinda makes me wonder if this is why its hard to believe anyone who tells me nice things about myself.

Now really, please don’t try to cheer me up, I’m fine. It feels great to get this off my chest.

Told myself I wasn’t gonna do any housework, just chill on the couch today… Yeah no. I...

Wed, 08 Feb 2012 13:35:41 -0500

Told myself I wasn’t gonna do any housework, just chill on the couch today… Yeah no. I cleaned the living room, made some calls about insurance for b, put the last of the Christmas decorations away, fluffed cushions, NOW I’m gonna chill lol Oh, and I set the dvr to record “my fair wedding”. Love that show & David Tutera!! Now to make lunch…

It’s so beautiful outside… It’s so warm in my bed… What to do, what to do?

Sun, 05 Feb 2012 13:11:35 -0500

It’s so beautiful outside… It’s so warm in my bed… What to do, what to do?

Even my phone hates WF. it just hung up on the lady trying to push a useless service to me when all...

Fri, 03 Feb 2012 23:47:53 -0500

Even my phone hates WF. it just hung up on the lady trying to push a useless service to me when all I wanted was to activate my card. I love my phone!

I’m still trying to cough up the other half of one of my lungs :( I can’t stand the...

Tue, 31 Jan 2012 10:09:50 -0500

I’m still trying to cough up the other half of one of my lungs :( I can’t stand the taste of the cough medicine but it works during the day. Gotta find something for the night though nyquil knocked me out. Ahh, red nyquil! My best friend. More affordable than jaeger.

Lasagna turned out well though I should use fresh spinach. I thought I squeezed all the water out of...

Sun, 29 Jan 2012 22:53:21 -0500

Lasagna turned out well though I should use fresh spinach. I thought I squeezed all the water out of it. I liked it, I have lunch for a few days!!

What’s for dinner you ask? Lasagna. I’m making lasagna with Italian sausage, spinach,...

Sun, 29 Jan 2012 18:31:09 -0500

What’s for dinner you ask? Lasagna. I’m making lasagna with Italian sausage, spinach, olives & mushrooms. Got some bread to make for a side. Forgot dressing for the salad so I think I’ll have green beans.

Still feeling crummy :( just from the chest up. I have to kick this, can’t be sick tomorrow!!

I know I’m supposed to be resting but I’m excited…. All the tax forms are in!!...

Sat, 28 Jan 2012 19:46:19 -0500

I know I’m supposed to be resting but I’m excited…. All the tax forms are in!! It’s crazy but I love tax time. More proof I need to get my cpa license. Ernst & Young, here I come lol

Looked at my phone tonight & I had a voicemail. In order to get to it, I had to go through...

Sat, 28 Jan 2012 00:53:36 -0500

Looked at my phone tonight & I had a voicemail. In order to get to it, I had to go through several others I had saved that were about to be deleted. I get to one whose number I don’t recognize. It starts to play…

“hey, its me. I’m leaving tomorrow, I should be there Monday…” In such a southern drawl. It’s the last message I got from brandon’s dad. He was trying to get back here to try working things out w/me & b one more time. Why, I have no clue. As mad as I was at him, I couldn’t help but start crying while listening to it tonight.

I remember that week. I had just landed in nyc on vacation, he called to ask if I’d see him if he drove up there from Kentucky. I told him no, I didn’t want to be hurt again. I ignored his calls after that. By the end of the next week, that message came thru but he never showed, he was gone. We never said goodbye.

You know that feeling you get in your gut when something is wrong but you’re not sure its your...

Fri, 27 Jan 2012 09:34:18 -0500

You know that feeling you get in your gut when something is wrong but you’re not sure its your gut or heart telling you this? Yeah, I have it in both places and its just plain strange, came on rather suddenly. I want to confront it but I don’t know if I should. I’d sleep on it but it woke me up lol

A nice view of the moon & a star tonight as I left work.

Thu, 26 Jan 2012 22:10:01 -0500

A nice view of the moon & a star tonight as I left work.

I got the best message last night on the online service… You’re the ugliest and the...

Thu, 26 Jan 2012 11:10:58 -0500

I got the best message last night on the online service…

You’re the ugliest and the most obese on pof. Me and my friends are rating the hottest down to the ugliest. You won both the ugliest and the most obese. Congratulations!

You have no idea how awesome this is lol. Here’s a paraphrase of what I wrote back…

Thank you so much for the honors, and for you to tell me twice makes it so much more special. Such a shame you and your friends have to troll a free dating site to make yourselves feel better, most guys are out getting laid, not you. You know, even us uglies get some action, too bad you can’t. Anywhoo, thanks for the lovely comments (sarcasm)

I love trolls!

I had a project I knew I could finish today but my fears overpowered me again. I have great friends...

Thu, 26 Jan 2012 01:41:26 -0500

I had a project I knew I could finish today but my fears overpowered me again. I have great friends who told me it was ok but it still bums me out, I really wanted to finish it. Maybe I’ll try again next week.

Tonight I did something for myself that I haven’t done in a long time. I took a bath, read a...

Wed, 25 Jan 2012 02:46:58 -0500

Tonight I did something for myself that I haven’t done in a long time. I took a bath, read a magazine in the bath and slathered on lotion after said bath. Man that felt so wonderful. Now I’m ready to pass out….

Good night!

Now that is how a dream should be. He was cute, a cop giving me a ticket in my own home, and held me...

Mon, 23 Jan 2012 10:04:39 -0500

Now that is how a dream should be. He was cute, a cop giving me a ticket in my own home, and held me tight while asking me out. Good Monday morning!

The chili turned out delicious, though I might have put a few too many drops of tapatio in. They say...

Sun, 22 Jan 2012 21:58:58 -0500

The chili turned out delicious, though I might have put a few too many drops of tapatio in. They say a lil heat will put hair on your chest. That’ll look sexy on me lol

Just woke up from a dream, crying. I once said I don’t like crying because I can’t...

Sun, 22 Jan 2012 09:46:10 -0500

Just woke up from a dream, crying. I once said I don’t like crying because I can’t breathe. In the dream, I had to give up on another dream. I’ll be damned if I’m gonna give up as easily as I did while sleeping. It may be a hopeless fight but I have to try, otherwise what’s the point of having things to live for. This is all because of one stupid one-sided fight between two good friends. It doesn’t help that my period has been playing peek-a-boo this week (one day here, gone in a few hrs, spotty the next, back again).

Oh I’ve missed posting here. I’ve mostly missed telling you my true feelings even though I know nobody on Fb actually reads the full blog.

I think the swelling in my schnoz has gone down enough where I could go back to sleep if my brain could stop thinking about the dream. Gonna try to sleep again, good morning.

And now fb won’t load right. Could this night get much worse??

Tue, 27 Sep 2011 23:04:15 -0400

And now fb won’t load right. Could this night get much worse??